Just when you think you’ve escaped toxic and narcissistic people, somehow they find a way to sneak back into your life.
It’s almost as if they can’t control your happiness anymore so they will go to great lengths to try to destroy you yet once again. Well guess what? It doesn’t work anymore. They can try and stoop as low as possible but I am a different person now. I am no longer weak or broken. I will not stand for anyone to control me in any way shape or form. Whether it’s trying to control me emotionally, mentally, financially…whatever the case is, it’s not going to happen.
It’s quite sad. I feel sorry for people who are so broken to the core that they feel the need to continue to break others. Let it go and stop trying to hurt people. It’s disgusting behavior.
I constantly get asked how I moved on and how did I get over what happened to me? The answer isn’t quite that simple. I’m still healing. It will take a long time and I’m still going to therapy to help me deal with it. Another popular question is how did I open up my heart? There is no timeline as to how quickly to move on after a heartbreak or divorce. Each person and each situation is different. You can’t choose when you meet someone or fall in love. It happens when you least expect it. I had no intentions of dating or finding someone EVER. I wanted to be single and being in another committed relationship after 20 years was not anywhere on my mind. I’m a firm believer in “everything happens for a reason”. It’s the most cliche saying but it’s so true. You don’t meet people by accident. I was meant to meet Mr. Right and he was meant to meet me. Milan was meant to have him in her life. Would I change anything? Heck no. He fulfills me in ways that I have never experienced before or even thought existed. I’m so grateful for him. I told myself IF I were to start dating, the only thing I care about is if the person is GOOD TO THE CORE and has a good heart. Everything else is a bonus. I got that and so much more. My life isn’t perfect by any means. My relationship isn’t perfect either. It takes a lot of work, commitment and love. I have a lot of work to do within myself and a lot of insecurities to get through. It’s a struggle EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. I will say this…I can finally share my story without tears. That proves to me that I’m in a much better place.
Thank you again for allowing me to use this platform to not only heal but to give others hope. Love you guys so much. XO