I’m not sure what to write today…
All I know is that I am grateful for so many things. I am grateful for Milan. She’s been an extra good girl lately and always making me smile and laugh. Kids are so smart and they sense when something is wrong. She told me I was her best friend yesterday and today and that she loves me more than the whole wide world. That is all I need.
I’m grateful for my mom and sisters who have been my rock throughout all of this darkness. I’m grateful for my close friends who I can confide in and there’s no judgement. I’m grateful for Milan’s grandparents that have been nothing short of amazing. I’m grateful that I have this blog and the community of women who have reached out to me to share their stories of pain and offered their support. It literally has brought me to tears all the messages and comments I’ve received. What I am going through is indescribable, extremely private and very personal. I’m not ready to share my story yet and I may not ever share it publicly. If it only affected me, that would be one thing but unfortunately it affects Milan as well. So please understand that it’s not because I don’t want to share, it’s because I can’t. Maybe some day I will have the courage to do so but for now, I will continue to update you on how I’m coping (not easy for me to do). Thank you for allowing me to share my life even the not so pretty parts. Thank you for supporting me, my blog and showing so much love for Milan. She is really the only reason I’m able to continue moving forward. Love you guys so much. XO
Sweater: Ann Taylor cowl neck tunic sweater (XXSP, on sale) | Jeans: Banana Republic (size 24P, on sale) | Shoes: Nordstrom Rack Abound booties (old, similar HERE) | Hat: Free People beanie (3 colors and 40% off) | Bag: Givenchy small Antigona | Lips: Smashbox